Friday, August 31, 2007
i noe my posts have all been like wordy n disgusting but im too lazy to upload anything. gave school a miss coz i feel like im gonna collapse from lack of sleep. i swear i have never felt so stressed in my entire life. i'm gonna fail everything. i wasn't even this stressed out for o's. THIS IS A SIGN. anyway i have yet to start studying even though i din go to school coz i just woke up awhile ago n i
1) packed my extremely messy table which manages to get messier n messier all e time but i really need a GOOD STUDYING ENVIRONMENT to be productive.
2) plan my sept holidays schedule. I MUST BE PRODUCTIVE!
3) eat a chewy bar. i lost weight again. i din even fucking exercise for a few weeks n i lost 1 kg out of nowhere. now i'm all of 41kg. SEE HOW FUCKING STRESSED I AM! i'm not anorexic i eat my breakfast, lunch, dinner, in fact more. just that i eat damn little as usual. i'm gonna drop hair or sth.
OHMYGOD n i have to say sth before i forget. yest when i came home from studying with melly. A PSYCHO SPOKE TO ME. im extra freaked out. i might be paranoid but he wore specs n looked old ok. like going to middle age old. n he's like stalker-ish n all. IM GONNA COME HOME AT 6PM everyday if im coming home alone. ppl do not get angry n walk away when u refuse to give them ur fucking msn. HE'S SCARY. i'm extremely stupid i walked straight home NOW HE NOES WHERE I STAY. y oh y did i do that. i swear it's not normal. NOT.
comfort me ppl. typing wad happened yest makes me jittery. ARH. so scary. i dun wanna die.
i'm stressed out n paranoid. i miss feroz khan alot. haha. i feel veri vulnerable now i'm gonna close all my curtains at home. SEE im fucking paranoid. i'm so stressed it's making me vulgar.
on a seperate note i forgot to mention i met my 1st TP fren that day! ALEXI! so happy. after i saw him i realised how much i missed all my 1st 3 mths times. miss him la. sweet dude. haha. called us sweethearts. no one calls ppl sweethearts except on tv whereby mummies call their kids that.
When I see your smile Tears run down my face I can't replace And now that I'm stronger I've figured out How this world turns cold and breaks through my soul And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one I will never let you fall I'll stand up with you forever I'll be there for you through it all Even if saving you sends me to heaven i love this song. makes me miss feroz khan even more. i need to go study now. ciao.
wait wait before i go n bath i just saw my class photo OHMYGOD it's hilarious. HAHA.
ok i really shld go bath n start doing work now. BYE.
